I am myself, once again

Song of the moment: Alive by P.O.D.



Everyday is a new day
I'm thankful for
Every breath I take
I won't take you for granted (I won't take you for granted)
So I learn from my mistakes
It's beyond my control
Sometimes it's best to let go
Whatever happens
In this lifetime
So I trust in love (so I trust in love)
You have given me
Peace of mind


Chorus:
I feel so alive
For the very first time
I can't deny you
I feel so alive
I feel so alive
For the very first time
And I think I can fly (fly)


Sunshine upon my face (sunshine upon my face)
A new song for me to sing
Tell the world
How I feel inside (Tell the world how I feel inside)
Even though it might
Cost me everything
Now that I know this
So beyond, I can't hold this
I can never
Turn my back away
Now that I've seen you (Now that I've seen you)
I can neva look away


Repeat chorus


Now that I know you
(I could never
Turn my back away)
Now that I see you
(I could neva look away)
Now that I know you
(I could neva
Turn my back away)
Now that I see you
(I believe no matta
What they say!)


Repeat chorus twice





Life is wonderful.



See what I mean? I am so fucking contradictoral. lol, whatever. That's me and if you don't accept it, then fuck you. =) Hehe anyways.... I must have had one of my all time lows this morning. I just didn't feel like doing anything. But you know what I did? I pulled my ass out of this computer chair, took a shower, and got ready for basketball. Ahh, the word of the Gods.


When I got there, I was immediately greeted by all the nice girls in my team. Not only by the girls in my grade, or the ones that I already knew, but by the new girls trying out. It was great, and it got me in a really good "leadership" mood. For the rest of the day, I was just really positive. I asked all of the new girls' names, and got to know them a bit. I can tell this is going to be a fun season. =D


After practice ended, I walked home (Yes, I WALKED. Unlike some of you lazy fucks out there. =P). When I got home, I was really eager to practice my dribbling. So, before I went online, I jogged a few times around my block with my basketball. I told myself I was going to go inside and eat a little bit before I start jogging again, but for some wierd reason, I ended up in front of my computer. lol.


So... after checking my messages (all of them), I posted about how happy I felt. When I checked it out, I saw that someone had posted on my tagboard. What they said just made me laugh, but after seeing the picture that he (Jaime) had posted, I got pissed off and started saying a bunch of crap. You can read about it, I don't want to re-explain everything. That whole thing with me and Jaime and my problem post-poned my plans for a long time, I don't even know how long. An hour, maybe?


After dealing with that, "solving" it, it was already dark as fuck outside. But I didn't care, I still grabbed my basketball and practiced my dribbling like mad crazy. I sprinted for a while, and jogged around some more... just to get my stamina up. I may have been panting, but afterwards, I felt.... rejuvinated. It's a wonderful feeling, definitely better than cutting. ò_Ó;;;


So yeah. I'm on my way up the hill, riding the little train that could. It may be small, and it may be slow... but at least I'm back on board. ;)



Choo choo!!




lol. I'm such a nerd. =)